I am 29 years old and have parents whom are ethnic/racial mixed backgrounds my father whose dad was a black cuban and his mom (whose parents were french/cuban & French/Indian) My mother whose parents are black Latins with Curly and straight hair but VERY dark skinned. Quite a combo! I was always proud of my many races and cultures of family including some asian ancestory thru my mothers side. When I reached school-age, this is when the problems occurred; colored skin was to me really didn't matter until I was always the dark-skinned "N" girl who spoke Spanish; even though there were a few other latin/Black mix girls who were a little lighter or darker but didn't speak the "lingo", made them more jealous plus the fact I didn't come from their neighborhoods. Now as an adult child it still is very hard to relate to black americans especially women they feel I look black but why is the texture of my hair different because most of their require relaxing. I seem to relate better with foreign, mixed backgrounds. When I would date black men FEW they want me to wear my hair down, never cut it, but hey would like for me to relax it; this really pisses me off because it stirs up envy and resentment from other black males and females who don't have what I have. I also always have people every day asking for an explanation of my French based last name even though it's a spanish name for black latins. In my life I am not black enough or black with more exotic interest but not submisssive like other latin women.

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